Week Nine

Where to start this week. Diabetes I think, I have had a bad week with hypos, far to many for my liking and not to sure why to be honest. I have an appointment with the hospital this week so I hope to get answers to help me get back on track I will also be getting my new insulin as well so that will help out. I have to say that I am a little worried by this week and wonder weather it could be psychological? If my blood sugar drops then I need to eat hopefully it is just my diet and not me, I hope not as this is not in the plan.

Exercise, I hurt my leg on Wednesday but managed to nurse through to finish the training session also had one of my grandson's stay over so was able to rest my leg which is just as important as exercising. I did walk to football and back on Saturday but I had problems with my bum and legs sort of pins and needles not sure if it was to do with dehydration or something else it was a very hot day, will ask questions at hospital this week. I do need to work hard this week at making everything work due to family commitments my good lady deserves a bit of my time this week as she has a week off work.

Food, this has been a strange/bad week and again I can not say why it has happened I missed an evening meal on Thursday and I have eaten more wholemeal bread and fruit than I should/need to this week, again is this down to the hypos more than me? I hope so, also the fact I have done less training than planned this week has made a difference.

I am amazingly upbeat this week after taking stock of everything and that is down to the slimpod and Sandra and Trevor's support and advice, that I don't see this week as a massive failure, but that the journey is taking its natural coarse and there will be ups and downs along the way to reach the end goal. That I can take stock and see the whole of the previous week and what has happened and have a plan for the following week is a tool that I have never had before. My weight this week is a still a disappointing 117.8kg last week was 116.8kg which is a gain of 1kg or 2.2lb.

On that bombshell I would like to announce that on Dr Albon's advice and encouragement I have entered the Great South Run on Sunday 30th October 2011 in Portsmouth, this is very daunting to me but having made the decision of a life style change and embracing exercise it would be wrong of me to make excuses not to do something like this, my only aim is to finish the race and the pride and confidence that it will give. I can not believe that I have done this nor have I ever felt the need to do something like this in the past. I am very proud of doing this and strangely looking forward to the big day.             

Week Eight

This has been a weird week for me I have committed the cardinal sin of weight watching and this has really messed me up this week. That was the first time in eight weeks I have done this and I hope never to do so again there must be better ways to torture oneself.

I am loving exercising on the x-box fitness still and I have even done an extra session this week as well (this is really amazing as exercise is/was not my thing really) I know it is working and that helps a great deal. I hope to get my bike this week and am looking forward to riding to stretch my legs and keep my body ticking over between exercise days. I am still working on exercising on my rest days and I look forward to them as well, I plan to top up in between if I need to.

My diabetes is a very important part of my life and needs constance checks to make sure that my body is coping with the chances to my life style chance. I am filling in food intake blood sugar sheet every day from now on as this also acts as a guide for me especially with my new found fondness fruit. I will also be changing my insulin in the next two weeks which will hopefully help stop the hypos I have been getting. This has made me realize that my weight loss is clearly good and at a safe level for my body to cope with, losing weight more quickly might well come at a cost to my health which in the long term would do more harm than good.

OK down to the weigh in as it has been a tough week with the scales I am very please to announce that this week my weight is 116.8kg last week was 118.1kg someone must have stolen 117kg thank you for that,anyway that is a weight loss of 1.3kg or 2.9lbs.

I feel on top of the world after this week and feel so happy that everything is failing into place as new elements are brought in to my journey I can now see for the first time why Sandra and Trevor were so confidant that this would happen when I clearly had reservation's due to my old way of thinking and being depressed. I now really do feel as though my mind has been re-tuned and I have joined the party.

Week Seven

Writing this weeks blog on such a natural high, two months ago I was suffering from deep depression which I have had for years so unhappy with myself and my life. This week has been the best week on my journey by far and the previous weeks have been pretty amazing as well. I have done three training session's this week on the x-box fitness and two 45 minutes power walks on Saturday to Fratton Park and back home afterwards, I feel so much better for doing them and am so positive about the future doing exercise and enjoying the process as well.

I have to write a section on Delta Team these are my work mates and a motley crew we all are, we all have our faults and sometimes we upset one and another but we always look after each and I am so proud to call these people my friends. We have a motto never let the truth get in the way of a good mickey take, and if the truth is known I am the butt of most things most of the time, to be fair I don't help myself but the comments are funny and I give as good as I get. That said this bunch of reprobates have also supported me talked to me, asked questions of me and challenged me and never ever judged me. Thank you Delta team I am grateful for all your support in the past present and future, you are an important part of my journey.

The weigh in this week is 118.1 last week it was 118.8 thats a loss of 0.7kg or 1.5lb. As I mention before I have had a flirtation with nuts that have not gone well and my blood sugar is still work in progress as I keep adjusting my insulin to my new healthier life style, my trouser size is down to size 40 so I am really pleased with this week and again look forward to next week with no negative thoughts and new barriers to break as my journey continues.

It is now time to get ready for work and brace myself for Delta team's response to this blog and just hope someone else will do something stupid quickly to take the heat of me alas I think that will not happen so I better be ready.

Midweek Thoughts

First of all what a great start for the week, actually enjoyed the first two days exercise looking forward to the different programs on the x-box fitness, plenty of variety so will not get bored. Glad I started at home quite funny (sad), my coordination is worse than bad, legs and arms all over the place and never in the right place at the right time, it will get better slowly, thank god I am the only one in the room. Looking forward to making my fitness video "How to fall over in a heap gracefully every 2 minutes and get fit" Sounds like a best seller to me.

Legs feeling better today will make sure I do a bit of walking to make sure legs are ok. Get to do do extra session this Saturday as Pompey at home so not working late shift. I have noticed already that my energy levels are up and I am doing more things than I ever did before because I can move about with ease and not worry about my health as my weight lowers.

I forgot to mention that my goal for April is to be able to do up the top button of my work shirts so that I can wear my tie. Today I have got my work clothes ready for today and the trouser's I have been wearing are to loose so I pulled out old pair size 40 and they fit only just but enough that I can wear I am so amazed my biggest trousers were size 48 and I have never felt better in years and years.

Deep down inside me I am still scared that I will fail. Why I don't know my life style change is permanent and I love being able to make good choices. I have this week brought some dates and nuts which are good for you but not in large portions I am failing with this as I am picking at them. I will have to either stop having them or buy smaller amounts, this is clearly a major set back but I can see straight away what went wrong. I am a little upset that I could not control myself this is the first time I have failed on portion size so its not all doom and gloom.  Lesson learnt time to move on.

Week Six

Been to hospital for diabetic check up first time seen Doctor since the press story broke will now be keeping an eye on blood sugar levels more closely due to weight loss. The need to balance weight loss, blood sugar level and the new ingredient going into the mix EXERCISE. Also spoke with GP so everyone is up to speed at where I am at.

First things first gyms I am not a fan of them having done them before and the fact you have to join for a year I'm sorry but that is a rip off if gyms allowed you to turn up and pay that would be better and I would be more inclined to embrace the gym. I brought my good lady an x-box kinect so I am now going to start at home with the x-box I am also getting a bike to ride to work and use when I have free time (shift work).

Having spoke about my concerns over the last couple of weeks and spoken with my Doctor's and Sandra I accept that weight loss will slow due to the weight loss I have already achieved as my body adjust's to the life style change's being made and the fact that I am still eating healthy and I am still not interested in bad foods. I am still on track and the plan was always to embrace the life style change and integrate my shift patterns first and then when the weight loss slowed introduce exercise.

The thing I have to watch now is not to use exercise as an excuse to eat more but to find the right balance between giving my body the fuel that its needs not wants and to make that my blood sugars stay stable, I have noticed that at the moment my blood sugars do drop with exercise and I have to get my sugars back up as I feel unwell. I will monitor this stage of my journey so carefully and if I struggle with the balance I have access to the right people to get help and advice.

On Tuesday I will use my fit pod and I am so glad to have it knowing how much change has happened with my slim pod, I go into this phase full of confidence that over the coming days and weeks I will embrace the exercise with enthusiasm and make the most of what it will offer me.

Weight for this week is 118.8 last week 119.1 that is a weight loss exactly the same as last week 0.3kg or 0.7lb. Bring on the next phase of my journey and kick start the weight loss again.    

Week Five

This week started with so much confidence and such a natural high I have even made an appointment to see my Doctor to come off or cut down on my anti-depressants as I clearly don't need them any more.

For some reason this week I have a couple of times eaten when 1. I should have stopped eating my dinner because I felt full, because it was mostly vegetables I kept going felt so guilty afterwards as though I had failed myself 2, Eaten bread twice when I should not have done again felt guilty and disappointed with myself because I really thought I had beaten those monkeys off my back.

COMPLACENCY has crept in I fear, it must stop now, I cannot eat more than I did last week just because I lost weight last week and the week before,that thought process is failed and will only end in weight gain. I must keep on track and keep focused on the long term goal.

That said I must put last week away and start afresh this week remembering why I am doing this how the weight loss so far has been amazing how much better I feel in myself to be able to exercise (walking only for now) and feel as though I'm not going to have a heart attack, wearing older smaller trousers that I never believed I would get in without surgery, and to keep repaying the faith that Sandra and Trevor have in me to follow my journey plan to its joyous natural happy ending.

So now the all important weekly weigh in last week's was 119.4kg this week it is ..............119.1kg a loss of 0.3kg or a nearly whole 0.7 of a lb. Firstly a loss is a loss so thats good but if I am truly honest and I have to be to myself for this to work properly I am shocked with a weight loss and I think the only reason for the loss was due to the walking done in London for the demo yesterday and the 1hour 20 minute route march back to the coach which we made with minutes to spare,two months ago I would not have made it thats for sure.

So on to next week and the battle ahead to keep the control I now have over food, not the other way round I hope I'm not letting Sandra and Trevor down but last week was very hard and I nearly failed this week will be harder because I am aware of what I did last week and must stop it from happening next week. Thank goodness I have the knowledge to see were I struggled and be able to address them. Bring on Week Six I am ready prepared and waiting for you.

Week Four

Welcome to week four of my journey with the help of Thinking Slimmer and its all good news this week no negative thoughts no But's no regrets only Positive's all the way.

I cannot remember the last time I felt this good about myself and positive about my life all at the same time, I feel like I want to burst with excitement, thankfully I can blog my positivity and then look forward to moving on to next week and have no doubts about the week ahead.

The whole week has gone well, I have been on late shifts three times this week and only one night my blood sugar dropped so I am coping so much better and I can clearly see the benefits of the choices I now make.I also had two days off together and never worried or thought about food like I used to do, always in and out of the kitchen picking at food all day and night.

So the weigh in then you can take it it went well !!! Last week my weight was 121.0kg this week it is 119.4kg thats a loss of 1.6kg or 3.5 pounds my BMI has come down from 43.55 to 38.4 so I have come down from severely obese to obese which is another milestone.

So on to next week full of confidence and belief, I never thought I would be in a position to say and mean this especially after only four weeks. "IF I CAN DO THIS ANYONE CAN DO IT." Thank you Sandra and Trevor for the help and support that you have given and are giving you have turned my life around.